Beauty is Bones

it_hurts_us @ 2008-08-31T21:49:00

2008-09-01T01:50:47Z

I think it is so thoroughly pathetic that I would get banned from a pro-ED website.
Realistically, pro-ED websites are sadistic. People get on there and make it their whole life. I used to.
It is like a cult. A sad, painful cult. I can understand why the media portrays them as a bad thing.
I honestly feel bad for the people who go on that site. They don't stand a chance to get any better by being there. Only worse.

it_hurts_us @ 2007-06-27T20:01:00

2007-06-28T00:03:04Z

It's raining but I need to do a workout
I am crawling in my own skin
ughhhh
god help me find a workout
yoga yoga yoga yoga
yoga for like 4 hours
yoga until I can't breathe
yoga is all I can think of
GOD HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!

TEST TEST TEST TEST TEST

2007-06-25T02:33:27Z

it_hurts_us @ 2007-06-17T18:44:00

2007-06-17T22:46:25Z

Well I hate ana. I know that I am going to die. It sucks. I just can't stop though. Ah well.

Since there are no such thing as calorie-free solids, I shall stick to gum and liquids ONLY.

it_hurts_us @ 2007-06-08T13:36:00

2007-06-08T17:38:11Z

2468 failed...710 calories today already!!!
I'm a FATASS
Why am I too fat to even go a day without
stuffing my fat stupid face
than throwing it back up

uhhhhh
I'm so pissed right now
I probably gained 3 lbs.

it_hurts_us @ 2007-06-08T08:48:00

2007-06-08T13:03:24Z

I have so many mosquito bites, it's ridiculus! I know that calmine lotion stops the itch but I have no way of getting any of that right now. Any other ways to stop the itch?!?! It is CRAZY how many of these damned bites I have got. And I don't even know where they came from!!!!

it_hurts_us @ 2007-06-02T20:32:00

2007-06-03T00:33:17Z

sorry, my last post should say gw#3-90lbs.!!!!

Testing again

2007-06-02T15:40:29Z

Testing

2007-06-02T15:38:08Z

Just testing somethin!

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Hospital

2007-05-31T13:38:51Z

So I had to stay at the psych unit in the hospital for the past week :(

Good news is, the whole time I was there all the guys were telling me how pretty I was :)

And one of them was extremely cute and spent my whole time there talking with me and flirting (without touching, there was a no-touching policy).

But now I am home and I only gained like 4 pounds because I flat out lied to my doctors.

Lots of Love!!!

it_hurts_us @ 2007-05-22T18:19:00

2007-05-22T22:22:59Z

PLEASE READ THIS!!!!!

I can't make myself puke anymore, my gag reflex is 'worn out' I suppose, so does anyone know another way to make myself puke? I feel gross and I have to puke, but it won't come up. HELP PLEASE!!!!!

Oy

2007-05-17T22:22:37Z

I'm so scared of recovery. Can someone who has been in inpatient maybe explain it to me? If you comment I can give you my email address and you can email me or just explain it to me in a comment. I'm very scared, I'm actually considering running away so that I don't have to go. Please, I am very scared, I am actually throwing up and having weird convulsions.

Please pray for me

Weird question

2007-05-17T21:35:53Z

This is an awkward question so I am going to put it under cut but I really want answers so yeah!

Does anyone know any kind of herbal substance or something to make my...er...breasts bigger? This is totally embarrassing but I really just want the perfect body and those are the only things that I am lacking. I have to go to inpatient soon but I can take herbs and stuff while I'm there so...yeah...weird question and you don't have to answer but I'm curious. And can you buy herbs and stuff like that if you are under 18? If not one of my friends will do it but I would like to keep this private from my friends and family.

post whore...sorry!

2007-05-16T14:50:03Z

Is it weird that I naturally don't eat over 400 cals a day? A bad day for me is like 350. I'm losing weight like a mad woman, I'm already at my 1st goal weight so I am trying to go lower...I wish that I still wasn't so freaking flabby :/.

I would post pics of myself but I lost the cord for my camera lol so I can't...maybe I will look for that today.

Ever since I lost those last 3 lbs. I have had no motivation...I lay around sluggishly and just feel shitty...I don't get it, I'm 95 lbs. now, I should be happy, I reached my goal...but I just am not. Most of the time I just lay around and I'm even on prozac to try to make me less sluggish but it won't work. And I cry alot.

Does anyone else feel this way? It just feels so...wrong. It all feels so wrong.

Why are people so concerned?

2007-05-16T14:18:50Z

So yesterday we had a work party where there was food and I didn't want anyone to get suspicious so I ate...

Than during a presentation I excused myself to purge.

A girl I work with noticed that I was gone for a little while so she came to find me and walked in during my purge. Than she started to talk about her concern and blah blah blah (this girl and I are really close...she isn't just a random co-worker)...

Than my boyfriend said that he missed my old body because I had a nice chest and some junk in the trunk and he said that he doesn't want me to be fat just healthy...

Why are people getting in my bussiness?

It's my life and I want to be thin...Why can't peole at least try to support me instead of being completely against the idea?

I figured it out!!!

2007-05-10T18:13:02Z

Ok my day has improved since this morning when my dad was sucking.

First thing I did: bought a new scale. And that beautiful new scale told me I am 99lbs!!!! ONLY 4 POUNDS TILL I REACH MY 1ST GOAL WEIGHT!

And than I made a discovery. I was leaning toward going on a binging cycle, so instead I went for a walk (where I bought my beautiful scale) and curved the binge! I was so excited that I had to share that with the whole world!

Oh my lovelies, just remember that nothing can stay bad forever. I hope all you gorgeous ladies & gents have a wonderful day!